What everyone has shown me, is you just need a reason to leave.
A reason to move on, to have some self reprieve.
What everyone has shown me, is to run away.
Because if I don’t, you will, and you’ll leave no trace.
What everyone has shown me, is to have no faith.
Relationships don’t last, don’t you move with haste.
So when something goes wrong, my mind moves to a place.
I assume you’ll lash out and go, that I’m never safe.
I’m still trying to fight, the notion that you won’t.
Look for reasons to forget me, or drive to the other coast.
Every time you find something, that bothers you I think.
No, I panic, and like a ship I sink.
Because everyone has shown me, that nothing keeps you safe.
That everyone may leave you, left with the memory of their face.
This insecurity will not stop, I’m trying hard to trust.
But this proposal has chased away, those I’ve loved so much.
My honesty won’t keep you, cause it bites and stings.
But everything I have can’t lie, so only pain it brings.
Maybe I don’t understand, reason or disagreement.
My feelings overwhelm rationalization, so with the pen I vent.
I’m anxious and want to tell you, everything I feel.
But I fear I make no sense, that nothing seems for real.
I’m sorry that I’m hiding, but I can’t look nor see.
My cowardice can’t lift my head, to felt tragedy.
I feel I need to plead, to keep you around.
I don’t want to be lost, but want to be your found.
